(ENG) Dear December, Thank You for Staying.

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This one might just be filled with all my confessions...

First of all, I owe a big apology for somehow forgetting to write regularly in this little home of mine. It’s the end of the year, and I think I’m becoming more forgetful, huhuhu—sorry!

Second, happy birthday to me! On December 11th, I officially turned 20.

Happy 20th, Haza!!

Third, congratulations to all of you who’ve made it through 2021 so bravely! You did amazing!!!

So… what else should I write about?

Maybe a little about my recent daily life that’s been so hectic I barely had time to write here. Honestly, the past few weeks have been chaos—final exams are getting closer—but thank God, I finally finished them all. Only one last final project presentation left (please wish me luck), and another speaking test. Ugh, I’m so tired of that subject already, so I really hope it goes smoothly and no more drama and tears, please.

Oh, and I’ve also been teaching private tutoring every Saturday and Sunday morning, then tutoring again at home in the afternoon. When I think about it... wow, I’ve been so busy. Super exhausted. But everything goes well, alhamdulillah, and I’m grateful for that. There are still so many things to be thankful for this year—really, a lot.

Even though my sleep hours are shrinking (and my K-drama time too, sadly), the fangirl life still goes strong, of course HAHAHA.

There’s actually so much I want to say, but I don’t even know where to start. Lately, from November to December, so many sexual harassment cases have been revealed. Every day, more and more people are brave enough to speak up. Honestly, I know there are still many who can’t. And it scares me. From the bottom of my heart, I’ve started to feel afraid to go out alone without a friend or family, even though I know I have Allah to protect me.

But anyway—please, whatever happens, let’s stop blaming women for everything. Stop saying “dress properly,” “don’t go out at night,” “don’t do this, don’t do that.” Sorry, but no matter how covered a woman is, if a man can’t control his desire, that’s on him. So please, control yourselves, @ boys.

A little off topic, but today I was supposed to have my final exam... and it got postponed again. I’m so tired, please I just want a vacation huhu :”)

Moving on!

The end of 2021 made me realize how important it is to appreciate myself—to value what I have, the chances I get, and the things I’ve been through. There are so many lessons I want to carry into next year.

Honestly, I don’t even know what else to say. I wrote this over three days... and now it’s already December 28th. It feels like reality just slapped me to finally post something here. Anyway, thank you.

Thank you for surviving this year.

Thank you for fighting.

Thank you for giving your best.

Thank you for standing up again no matter how broken you were.

Thank you for being awesome—everything good belongs to you.

Thank you, Circa Eos. Because of you, I’m still here. Thank you for being home when I felt lonely and sad. You’re amazing.

Let’s rise again in 2022 and build an even bigger home together, you and me!!!