(ENG) A Glimpse into My 5th Semester Life

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As the title says, I just want to share a bit about my life these past few weeks since starting my 5th semester. Kind of like giving a little picture for those who are still freshmen, still in high school, or already in their 3rd semester.

Turns out, people weren’t lying when they said the 5th semester would be packed. Even thinking about what time I should go to bed—no time for that. Finding some “me time” to relax? Also none. Though just yesterday I forced myself to watch a drama because life has been too overwhelming, and honestly, it made me feel like I was being selfish this week.

Basically, if I can be honest, the 5th semester has been draining me dry. My energy, time, personal life, hobbies—everything is consumed. I didn’t give myself any space to just live like usual. To me, living this busy is not normal. Waking up every morning with such a heavy load on my shoulders, pushing myself to stay awake until 2 a.m., or receiving messages from friends at odd hours.

That has now become my new “normal.”

But still, I can’t get used to the rhythm. Every weekend, I feel exhausted beyond words. I really can’t even remember what happiness feels like. Because honestly, even though all of this is a responsibility I have to fulfill, sometimes I just wish I could disappear for a while… just give me some time to actually enjoy myself.

But the reality is, I never have time for that. Even if I go silent on social media for just a bit, there will always be a pile of messages waiting for me—mostly about assignments, group work, or some other requests. My time for writing has also become more limited. Looking at the date now, it’s been more than two weeks since my last post about suddenly becoming a class leader.

Today I managed to steal a little time.

Later after dzuhur, I have another class. Actually, there’s one right now too, but the lecturer couldn’t teach today, and the practicum report had to be submitted this morning anyway. I’m just tired of saying “I’m tired.”

Next week, I’ve scheduled myself to upload a new chapter on Wattpad. Luckily, I’ve already prepared quite a few parts of my story, so when the time comes, I just need to revise them a bit before publishing. As for Circa Eos, I still can’t set a routine writing schedule. Besides needing material to write about, I also have to keep up with the trending news. Basically, I can’t just “write whenever I want” like I did three years ago. Hahaha.

But still, it’s not impossible. I might end up writing regularly again, most likely about my daily life in this hectic 5th semester. You guys should also keep feeding yourselves with the things you love, don’t let it slip. Look—it’s already October, halfway through. Which means 2021 is almost over. Can you believe that?

Yeah, I can’t believe it either.

That’s why we need to make time, to make sure the ending of 2021 feels more, more, and more meaningful.

Let’s do this!

PS: Oh right, I also posted the latest part on Medium, you can check it out here!