(ENG) Three Years of Circa Eos

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Hello, it’s me again — showing up on the 115th post on Circa Eos with a heart full of confidence, pride, and all sorts of feelings that make me turn around and see how far I’ve come.

Turns out, it’s been 1,095 days since I started writing here.

All the ups and downs, the joy and sadness, the countless memories, the opinions filling my head, and the things that once made my chest feel tight — I managed to pour them all out right here.

And honestly, I’m proud of myself.

Once again, I don’t need anyone’s validation just to pat me on the head and say I’ve done well.

Three years ago, I never thought I’d stay consistent this long — writing on this blog, sharing stories that somehow ended up touching so many people. Back then, all I wanted was a space to write my daily thoughts.

It started when I was in 12th grade — that was when I first opened this platform to share my school life stories, from elementary all the way to high school. I’ve told it all here.

Tonight at 11 p.m., I’m writing a special title to celebrate Circa Eos’ third anniversary — just in case tomorrow’s busyness keeps me from dropping by. I don’t want this special day to be messy just because of my college workload.

Honestly, I feel so happy being able to keep this blog alive for three whole years.

If it were a baby, it’d probably be babbling and running around by now.

But sadly, I’ve been visiting less often lately — unless there’s something big happening that I really want to talk about.

Even though this year I created a new section for film and K-drama reviews, the only one I truly wrote for my readers was Rentang Kisah and Parasite was for a blog event I joined.

To be honest, I didn’t achieve much this year.

My chance to pursue medical slipped away with time.

My 4th semester grades were disappointing.

And none of my writing event submissions got accepted.

So… yeah, I guess this year was another round of failures for me.

But somehow, those failures pushed me back up.

They made me want to plan more, to make sure I don’t stay stagnant like this.

And eventually, I remembered something I couldn’t achieve last year — but finally did this year.

Yes.

I finally have a podcast platform on Spotify!

I’m so thankful for my partner, who never gets tired of doing projects with me even though, honestly, she’s way ahead of me in so many ways.

Ura, if you’re reading this — thank you so much for giving me the chance to speak, to share conversations with you. Please know that I truly believe good things will come our way someday! Let’s keep chasing everything in front of us until we can finally say… we made it.

At least this year, I have another milestone I can remember when the fourth anniversary comes around.

Hopefully — hopefully — there will be a fourth year for Circa Eos. Aamiin.

And with so much pride, I also want to introduce my friends from my new stories — you can visit quedilego to learn more about them. I hope those stories can become new companions for you, too.

A new account, a new soul, a new story.

I made a promise to myself — I won’t abandon the things I’ve written here.

I also won’t expect too much from them.

What matters most is that each piece carries a little bit of life — a bit of my soul — to whoever reads it.

Once again, I never hoped for my writings to be popular.

I just want them to bring something meaningful, even if someday I, Hazara, am no longer here.

Finally, I want to say thank you — truly, deeply — to everyone who’s kept reading my messy writings, who keeps sending me DMs on my personal Instagram or the ruangan account, who keeps encouraging me, and keeps breathing life into what I write.

Thank you, thank you, thank you.

If I could, I’d hug each of you — my readers, my friends, my loved ones, my family. Thank you so, so much.

Ummi, Abi, Kakak, and Hossam! Look at this!

There’s still a spark of hope that I can hold onto — to bring into tomorrow, to keep walking beside all of you. :)

Oh, and as for my wishes for the fourth year — nothing too fancy.

I just hope my writing will grow better in quality, more worth reading, and carry even more life to those who find it.

Stay healthy, everyone.

See you at the 4th anniversary celebration on September 21st, 2022, insya Allah! 🌙